Idk if this is appropriate to post here, but this is 50% rant 50% asking for advice.
I'm stuck. I can't come up with any more ideas, and any writing I do nowadays seems like shit. So much like shit, in fact, that I can't even bear to go back and read it again. I've deleted huge chunks of words, 4-5 paragraphs at a time even, because they were objectively awful, even though they seemed brilliant at the time I was writing it. I worry all the time when writing that these ideas are not the best, and I always question myself what if whatever I'm writing now seems good but it's actually horrible and I'll cringe when I read it again?
I have no idea how to proceed. My topic is very sensitive and I'm afraid that I'll be unable to portray it accurately because it's so varied from person to person and I'm just scared that I can't represent the population accurately through just one character.
Coming to the technicalities, I don't know what happened to my writing technique. My writing seems to have gone from constant 95% compositions and essays in school, to toddler just learning how to write. Everything seems just so substandard and awful. When I read it again for editing, I wonder how I could have even allowed my fingers to type those words. It feels almost sacrilegous. Then I just give up and browse Reddit to numb my mind and reminisce the days when I could easily churn out a 4 page story within 30 mins to impress the teachers and get full marks on everything, when now I can barely write anything of value.
I'm so tired of thinking about what to write, I'm so tired of writing a sentence and then deleting it because it seems subpar. I'm especially tired of staring blankly at my screen wondering how to proceed because every idea seems horrible. I keep having many ideas, all of which seem brilliant, but when I try to get them down, they actually sounded better in my head.
I don't know what to do about this. If you have any advice please let me know because I am at my wits' end. Thank you.
edit: who am I kidding this is 99% rant 1% asking for advice smh
Source: reddit post