I hope I'm not breaking any rules posting this. I looked and I didn't see anything against it, forgive my ignorance if found otherwise.
I've come to ask for help. I don't know how else to explain this other than that writer's block is an understatement of how I feel while writing. My mind feels entirely blank in front of a screen or notebook. I have an idea of what to write, a vision or feeling, I see it but I can't describe it. I don't know how to convey it onto paper. My mind entirely disappears and it feels as if simultaneously it's racing a thousand miles an hour with ideas and feels completely blank and empty.
As a kid I loved writing, I loved creating stories. I'm an actor, so writing is a second passion, but it doesn't help that I can't write a script I want to make. I can't write a poem to get my feelings out, I can't even write in a journal of what I did during the day to practice at least something. I feel as if my 22 years of vocabulary suddenly disappears before me and my mind has nothing to draw from or relate to. No internal dilemma, no external action, nothing.
How do I break this? I've been experiencing this for years and I feel guilty that I can't write or keep with any of my goals. It's almost as I feel I dread or fear writing. I recently made one of my goals this year to read more, perhaps it would flush my mind into something but I have trouble focusing on what I read and mentally collected. I want to break this and establish better habits.
The last thing I wrote was maybe four lines to an epic poem I wrote while drunk, and I was around a negative space that I could draw inspiration from at that time. But even that was the most I've written in a matter of maybe two months, and before that, maybe years.
Has anyone struggled with this? How do you find your writing zone? How did you break out of writer's block? How did you feel creative again?
Source: reddit post